Good day Dad. I trust you are doing well.
It would have been very nice to express myself to you face to face but unfortunately the circumstances do not allow for that to happen.
I have been thinking recently about many things that have taken place in my life. I must admit it would have been amazing to have you experience these events with me and Mom. I honestly dont know what happened between us. I would love to know what made you not want to give me the love I so needed from you. As I grew older, I experienced many situations that needed my father’s advice but I had to manage without it because you were not there.
I need to let you know that I was hurt when you disciplined me in a harsh manner that made feel like I was not even your only son. But I took it in as you are my parent. I lived all my life trying to please you because I did not want to be in your bad books.
What hurt the most is when you did not show up to all the crowning events in my life and some included my wedding and the birth of your precious grandchildren.
In your actions I started to think that you did not believe in me at all. This for some time made me feel like I am a failure. I honestly did not manage to win your love. I would envy some of my friends that you would laugh with and praise them when they did small jobs near you.
However I have grown to learn that the way you treated me does not determine the kind of a person I am becoming. I have worked hard to avoid falling into a trap of becoming a bitter, hateful and depressed person because of you.
I want to be a proof that I can stand beyong my situation and circumstances. I am working hard to become the best father to my children, because I dont want them to go through what I went through. I am working hard to become the best husband to my wife as I do not want my wife to go through what my mother went through.
Though i miss you and would have loved to have you in my life, know that I am managing very well. My mother has acted in your capacity and her role for all these years and she managed very well.
Know that I do not hate you at all fo what you did and failed to do. I have just grown to not allow you to control my life from a distance.
I wish you all the best that life has to offer.